Dealing with imperfections

I'm feeling nostalgic and a tad melancholy tonight. Perhaps it's the rain. I just wanted to post some of those random esoteric thoughts I warned of in the beginning of my blog. I've been thinking of all my imperfections this evening, and how they fit in to make me who I am.

First of all I'm very impatient. It is a flaw I have. I get anxious and excited, it causes me great pain in my life because I just can't wait for what should happen on it's own normal course

Another bad thing about me is I'm relatively moody (ha... now the whole world knows). My moods can go from happy one minute to angry or broody the next. I blame it on midlife hormones, but the hubby knows better. That is just me. I am working very hard to control this.

Which leads me to another imperfection... my temper. I have a VERY bad temper. Not many people experience it because I work VERY hard these days to keep it in check. But my family, my hubby, and my close friends know... Julie is not herself when she gets ticked off. It's like I'm the Incredible Hulk or something. :P

Also i'm impulsive. I can do things without thinking about the consequences sometimes just because it seems like a good idea at the time.

I post these flaws and admit it freely to the world. Yes, I'm the typical impatient, fiery tempered , moody Aries of my astrological sign. However, there are a few good things about me that HOPEFULLY allows my family and friends to see past all this and see a different Julie.

This different Julie is a sweet person. She is compassionate and empathetic. You can often see her acting like a sap and bawling over some real or imagined hardship in the world. Yes, seeing people hurting is the fastest way to get to me. I can't stand it, I will do anything I can to prevent it (even total strangers, not just people I love).

This Julie is a bit of a wuss about many things in life, but when it comes to standing up for what I believe is right ,or for people whom I believe have been wronged.. I'm all over it. Bring it on, I'm not scared!

This other Julie cares what the people she loves thinks about her. I've never been one to say "screw it, I don't care what they think". My friends and families opinion of me is VERY important to me. If I appear flawed in their eyes it brings me great pain.

Finally the last 'reverse imperfection ' as it is, my generosity. I have been know to stretch myself thin to give to my family and friends. Whether it be my time, my physical efforts, or what little money I have, I try to give it freely and happily to those I love. It is something that makes me happy in this life, to share.

I hope those who know and (hopefully) love me can see all of these things. All of these imperfections and good characteristics all roll into one to make me who I am. I am not a bad person, but I am a flawed person as we all are.